Last week, I decided I finally needed to make some things happen with Hekate. We’ve had a rough time sometimes because of our complicated history, but it feels like we’ve worked through things okay. As it stand now, I consider Her an ally and even a friend and Someone I think I’d like to keep knowing even after this current agreement is done.
It’s been hanging over my head, though, that I promised her way back at Mystic South to make Her a dedicated pendulum.
(This is what I do; after experiences of pendulum hijacking years ago, I am now a very strong believer in dedicated pendulums that accumulate the energy of Whomever you’re talking to with it. That doesn’t make it immune but highly resistant and in my experience always throws off warnings if there’s interference long before it gets to actual hijacking. And it also serves as a nice talisman/simple portable altar for connecting with People I don’t keep regular altar space for and just set up something temporary with now and then.)
It’s been like five months now and I still hadn’t made it, because I couldn’t see it. Usually when Someone wants something, I lay out some supplies and think/talk through some ideas, showing Them my mental images of it, and They agree or change things. Sometimes They already know exactly what They want and just show me an image of the stones, charms, pattern of beads and I go buy supplies and make it happen. But this time I didn’t feel like I was getting clear answers and Her feedback to all my suggestions felt like a meh, sort of but not quite.
Last Friday I pulled out my stuff and spread it out. She’d already been super adamant that She wanted this amethyst point I was given at Mystic South and the antique key I got from Mystic South, and this purple charoite she had me buy for Her years ago—I think back when She first appeared to me, myself, in that glorious short time before I realized it wasn’t the first time I’d met Her since I was a kid and it turned things complicated—and so I started laying those out. I also had a sense of black obsidian and maybe something red and added choices for those. And then I invited Hekate and said: we’re doing this today, we’re getting it right today, I’m making it today, and I’m dedicating it before the end of the weekend.
Maybe that was the kind of certainty She was waiting for from me. Or maybe we’ve talked out enough things in these last few weeks to have arrived a good place for creative stuff, one better than where we were before where we connected better. I don’t know, but it worked out.
I did my dedication Sunday afternoon. The pendulum turned out super cool and feels so Her to me. And She asked me also to dedicate these stones I was given at Mystic South, and this set of witch runes from there as well. They were always to be Hers, but I hadn’t done a ritual for them yet, so they were folded into this one.
It makes me feel hopeful for the future of the relationship that it ended up so much about ways of communicating, because I think that’s often where we’ve struggled before. But I think maybe we’re starting to do better, though, beginning to really understand each other now.